here and gone

so, I felt like I had some extra weight around my midsection. now, it's gone (whether it was there or not.)

More recently, I've felt as though I'm documenting my relapse. From what i've heard it's a slippery slope, the road to recovery. And i couldn't shake this feeling that i was gaining weight. and maybe that's what recovery is about. And after 13months why did i not trust my psychologist?

All i need to do is get back to basics: count and eat my daily caloric intake. here's the problem with that. since i've already lost a few, i think i look good.

looking good feels good. and that's addictive. by no means unhealthy.

but, eh. what do i know.