here and gone

so, I felt like I had some extra weight around my midsection. now, it's gone (whether it was there or not.)

More recently, I've felt as though I'm documenting my relapse. From what i've heard it's a slippery slope, the road to recovery. And i couldn't shake this feeling that i was gaining weight. and maybe that's what recovery is about. And after 13months why did i not trust my psychologist?

All i need to do is get back to basics: count and eat my daily caloric intake. here's the problem with that. since i've already lost a few, i think i look good.

looking good feels good. and that's addictive. by no means unhealthy.

but, eh. what do i know.

The World Scale

To preface my sounding pretentious, I only recently started reading The Economist.

However, what I have found out is that my world view is completely skewed.

Why was I not taught how other nation's governments work in my junior government class? Sure, we learned about the supreme court and state circuits, but what about UK parliament? I'm sure any American with the "quality" education as I was given still feels inferior having a political or economic conversation with an individual from another country (as the conversation relates to the issues of the country)

I love getting a different perspective. Love it.

OK, I'm a lover of Time, but although it's exceptional reporting. It's Ameri-centric. Which is good sometimes, but lately...


I need to put things in perspective.

yep, saw this coming

so, i was on vacation in Missoula, MT for a week of mountain biking and frisbee golf. i ate when i was hungry. and, considering I biked for about 4hrs a day, that was often.
When i came back to Fargo i felt like i had lost weight (which i felt was good), but i couldn't get around the fear that for some reason i think i'm becoming a chunk.

What do i do?

What. do. i. do?

i feels like a lot of anxiety is making an appearance, what with a new semester getting closer.

for reasons i am still working out, when i get anxious I stop eating and start exercising whether going to the gym or biking 30+ miles a day. goddamnit i love biking, but it may kill me.

over last week or the week before or a few days ago, i've told myself i need to get back to the way i was. my pants don't fit right and i don't recall these abdominal rolls where they should not be.
this needs to be solved.

answer: -10lbs

C'mon now.

OK. So, the new CIA Director Panetta believes Cheney wants to see the U.S. attacked again? That's just hurtful!

I know Mr Cheney has gotten a lot of grief for loving the Patriot Act and many other pro-homeland security issues. But to suggest that he would allow for individuals to die for political capital is unreasonable, illogical and ultimately irresponsible.

I do not agree with the majority of ideologies Mr Cheney supports. However, as a person void of political manifesto, as a father, husband and american citizen he does not wish harm on anyone undeserving.

From reading several G. W. Bush biographies in my former years, I've come to the conclusion the Mr Cheney is like a grandfather of democracy. Sure, sometimes you have to shrug off several misguided nomenclatures, but wholly, he is a good man who wants what is right for the United States.

He's not sinister. Not a war monger. Not a puppet master. He's kind of like the U.S's grandpa: sweet.