it's gonna have to start making sense soon

I'm at the lowest i've been in a long time. I'm scared about not being able to finish school or not being able to do tasks at work.

Still trying to figure out how this whole eating thing is connected to stress and anxiety. Something that has been talked about in my therapy session at length many times. Answer: It just is. they're just connected. Presumably, something happened a long time ago and my brain connected body-image to self-worth. so it goes, when the world doesn't work out the way I want it to I can feel better about myself for losing weight.

I feel like I've been at this place before. Having the same thoughts circling my head. "I want to focus in classes, but i don't feel like eating enough for the energy"
"Maybe this could be fixed with fewer pounds"

It's gonna have to start making sense soon.